Why, hello you.

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

All these things happening. Seems familiar eh?

Rings a bell. Several bells.

Several misunderstandings. So this was the case back then I guess.

Well, guess I understand now. When its all too late.

Its over anyways.

OK back to school life.

Found quite an annoying song today, good as an alarm signal.

Things surprisingly going OK. Borderline passes. Time to work on it.

More motivation, less worrying.

Whatever it may turn out to be.

Get well soon. :)

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:20 PM

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Monday, July 13, 2009

I told myself I won't be a jerk. Sure didn't seem to keep my promise. Bitched around the whole day like nobody's business.

I think that's pretty much enough.

Looking back, some things I shouldn't have done today. But it's done, so whatever.

Fucking stupid.

Hope I didn't ruin anything, but hoping now is useless.

Moving on.

Somehow I don't think so, though everyone thinks it is so.

See first. Either way, I don't like the sound of it. Though I should voice out about it, what good will it do?

Anyway, pray hard.

And get to the workload.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:21 PM

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Sunday, July 12, 2009

We'll fuel this controversy.

With regards to whatever is going on. I shan't think too much of it.

No matter what, shall not be a jerk.

Argh, so disturbing.

Anyways, went out jamming with Ariz, Brina, Natalie and Yi Xiu. Was rather fun,played till blisters appeared, what the hell LOL.

Burst blister quite fun.

And before that, along the way, bumped into Shaun Paul and Keith Lim outside Bishan MRT, followed by Justin Kor on the bus. Small world man! XD

Once again ate and chatted at the Long long house.

A lot of things to talk about eh? :D

And then we went home.

And I'm back.

And I've got work to do.

And I feel like just not doing it and going to sleep.

We'll see about that.

Oh and Math retest this week, but haven't studied at all for it.

Hope won't get owned, again. LOL

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:39 PM

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Loads of thinking today.

Was quite fun today, everything sounded nice. Of course, we could still use more practice.

Yeah after all, we only had two days worth of practice. XD

But not bad considering that eh? :D

Kinda liked Lips Of An Angel, though we played it only like once? LOL, doesn't matter, so long as it's learnt. :D

Ate and chatted at Long long house, weird auntie, weird tofu, weird prices.

Then we all headed home for AMK Hub. Lol, saw a plant growing out of the bus from the window, absolutely hilarious.

Yeah then we went our separate ways. Though went on a hunt for new slippers with Gran lol, that took quite a while.

Then we sat down somewhere and played 2 bloody long rounds of chinese chess. Kinda lame right? But it was fun, and rather meaningful actually.

1) Every move you make should have a purpose, don't make pointless moves.
2) You don't have to eat your opponent's chess pieces all the time. Sometimes defense is the best offense.
3) Think and strategize before you move.
4) Prioritize and plan.

Yeah kinda weird to sit down and play chess, sounds like what old men would do, but we just felt like it LOL.

Really set me thinking after such a long time of not putting my brain to work LOL.

Headache. And was too tired to think.

And after that was done, went home. Bumped into Stephen LOL! What a small world man.

But no. Went Pasarmalam with brothers, talked and ate. Then went to the spiderweb area, near..

Foul memories.

Anyway, am back home now. Tired.

Jamming tomorrow haha. Better rest up.

Controversies, let's not overthink this, lest further problems arise. It's just plain weird.

It's funny how we're always in this one-sided thing.

How blissful it is for this to be something mutual.

For now, can only work on being someone better. To be the best for you.

Small talk.

Actions speak louder than words.

Work on it then.

Bye.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 1:46 AM

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Tuesday, July 07, 2009

Been a long time since I posted anything.

Block tests are long gone and screwed upside down.

Failed Math, as expected. Need more practice, that's for sure.

The rest of the results aren't out yet.

Either way, really have to thank Ee Ning and Sim Yee for getting me out to study on those two separate days during the holiday. If not I think I really would've just idled at home and rot. LOL

Quite some things have happened recently, some rather heartwarming, some rather disheartening.

Basically, conversations with friends.

Sometimes go awry, not the way you expected it to be, but since when did anything turn out the way you want it to be? Just be contented that people bother to respond.

Though sometimes they don't even do that. But I shouldn't bother; it's not going to change itself anyway.

So screw it. Several misunderstandings.

Whereas, there have been good conversations too. Nice to know there are still people around there for you. Somebody is an ANGEL ah! X)

Patience, I should really learn to wait, and stop making people wait.

The new Biology teacher is nice and friendly, haha great! But that also implies no more semi-break Biology lessons anymore.

Really got to work harder now, motivation in mind.

Faith, belief without logical reasoning. Even if its just me, even if its one sided.

At least that's a good reason to keep on going. :)

The moment when your eyes looked into mine. Absolutely fleeting. Didn't know how to react. Haha.

Don't know whether I should keep my hopes up, or raise it any higher. But I'm not going to push it.

Contented at where we're at right now. If it's anything special at all. I don't know. I don't want to overestimate things, because it might just ruin things.

Take it slow, see how it goes.

:D

Well, upload a video here.

I got a feeling it'll be a small Wednesday tomorrow.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 9:09 PM

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Thursday, June 25, 2009

Guess that's the thing about holidays, can't get out of the mood.

Well you actually can, it's just difficult. To some.

Or rather, most. Don't know.

Anyway, relaxed too much already.

Three days left.

You know what to do.

Don't just die like that.

Remember from before. Even though this isn't as large scale as O levels.

It still means a lot, at least put up a fight.

OK good luck to everyone for their tests, be it whatever it's called. Block tests, cube tests, sphere tests, anything.

Enough distractions.

This is one too.

So bye!

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:57 PM

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Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Last week. Make good use of it.

Should start saving money again. Super broke.

Sort the feelings. Straighten out the thoughts.

Mull. Dwell. Decay. Stop it.

No one likes you being like that.

That's how it happens in the first place!

Confidence k? :)

You can miss the people at school.

But think, do they miss you as much?

I really wonder.

And I will never know.

Don't think so.

Ah, go study la.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 12:04 AM

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

And it all dimmed out as though it was nothing special to begin with.

I'd like to believe otherwise.

All but a mere obligation to commit to other areas.

I'd like to understand.

Either way, good luck to all of you. :)

Last week left.

I've really got to stop wasting time, and just study already.

Right after this commercial break.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:06 PM

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Thursday, June 18, 2009

What a day.

I believe this was our first PW meeting outside of school haha.

Quite fun, we did manage to discuss some stuff, found the documentary too.

With that they went off. And Meryl left her chocolates behind LOL.

Then, Trail Of The Panda with Melvin and Manna haha.

MnM. Siala, kinda extra of me to tag along.

But was still fun la, ate some wasabe.

And now back home.

Tomorrow study session!

Play some more first.

Can't believe I haven't studied, up till now.

Die for block test luhh.

Don't hate me leh. Please.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:35 PM

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Monday, June 15, 2009

When you feel like shit.

I fluster. I panic. I go so frantic.

When I feel like shit.

Don't bother. It doesn't matter. Makes you feel better.

What's the point? It's only natural.

This sickening pattern.

If this isn't something mutual, should you persist?

I don't know, am I even worthy at all?

In the meantime, I can work on myself.

There's still time.

There always is.

Admiration.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:53 PM

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Sunday, June 14, 2009

Quiet is fine.

Things to do:
Library tomorrow, don't know what we're gonna do.
Study.
Hang.

Yeah.

And I'm off.

Just keep your hopes up. :)

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:59 PM

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Friday, June 12, 2009

So far so bad.

Never an instance of success.

Useless, so you say.

That sure helps.

Don't know how long I'm going to keep lying to myself.

Live in denial.

Keep feigning.

Face it, you won't make it.

You can't, for anything.

So much for counseling back then.

Inferior. Is it not the case?

In what way are you better than any other?

None I say.

Is that why no one bothered?

Is that why she didn't even try to help?

Who gives a shit about your problems?

People don't give a shit if how you feel.

People laugh at your depression.

A pathetic reason, as to why I'm in this pathetic state.

And it just keeps going downhill.

Someone to pour all this shit into.

Right, I'm not that evil.

All the things that you keep to yourself.

Talking about it won't help.

Things won't change, they'll still be that way.

Live with it.

Face it.

Somehow, can't accept it.

Somehow, hate the happiness and bliss you're having right now.

I'm not that noble. Not a good friend.

Maybe that's why you left.

Idiot.

6 years.

17 years.

Counting.

Stay away and forget.

As if I could do that.

So alone.

All the one liners.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:53 PM

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Thursday, June 11, 2009

Really afraid of losing a friend like you.

Dream, a bad one. It happened, because I fear for it?

I think I really need to watch what I say next time. Think before I act. Don't want things to go the way I dreamt, a bit the absurd, but it just might happen.

Sometimes, expressing your frustration might not be a good thing.

You're not the only one hurting here. Think about your friend.

So next time, I really should think before expressing my frustration, especially when I can't exactly feel what you're going through.

Anyway hope we cleared things up, hope you're taking things better?

I need better time management, been late for everything these days. Things coincidentally crop up at the most inconvenient moments. I should just leave earlier before anything happens.

Shirk them responsibilities? Like I have any sense of it.

Been sleeping or doing school stuff these days, so haven't popped by in a while, sorry.

Now I have to leave again.

Don't know when I'll be back.

In your mind, what do you think?

For Every Little Ice Cube I Ate.

Hopeful, if it'll just work out.

Though it never did.

Almost numbed by all those setbacks. Almost.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:34 PM

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Monday, June 08, 2009

All it took was just that one moment.

One angry occasion.

Flipped her out.

She says it's OK, but apparently it's not.

Different eyes, different look, different attitude.

Indifferent.

Never the same again?

I've been a jerk, and sorry just doesn't suffice.

Is there nothing I can do?

Nothing.

So it's just going to stay like this eh?

GAH FUCKING SHIT.

ONLY WIMPS GO FOR SUICIDE.

BE A WIMP THEN?

haha.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 9:23 PM

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Been so busy these days, didn't really have the time to respond to stuff, or post anything.

Sorry for the long lag.

Really lethargic these few days, its getting to me.

Sleeping so much isn't enough.

This headache is killing me.

Without a cure.

Hey but I had fun these few days too! :)

Holiday lessons, Guitar Practice, Post-SYF Concert and GENUS Concert.

So awesome. Yet so tired now.

Now if only this headache would go away.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 12:09 AM

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Tuesday, June 02, 2009

By ear.

Even so, the skill isn't there. Haven't touched it in ages, Evelyn kept it for quite long huh. Then now it's with Gran. Gotta get it back soon. Damn, I miss it.

Ain't got anyone to teach me anyway.

So I ain't exactly very good at it anyway. Reminds me of the first time.

And the journey so far, and how many times giving up came into my mind.

But really, even though I claim to have not given up, how hard am I actually trying?

Am I still going to keep up this dream?

Is it foolish of me to be so ambitious?

Recall, all the shit that had happened.

The Les Paul Bass. The Ibanez Steve Vai Guitar.

Argh. And where have we come to?

These days, so hectic.

Anyway, maybe should get someone to teach me a little when there's free time? :D

Someone really patient.

These days, so exhausting. SO WARM.

The classroom is like a sauna with the ceiling fans directing hot air at you.

Damn, global warming is getting to us.

And guess what? When the climate gets warmer, we turn on the air-conditioner more often and at a stronger power, which will increase the effects of global warming and the climate will only get shittier.

Good game, we spell our doom.

These days, so confusing.

Relationship module. Holiday lessons. CCA.

Friend, or something more than that?

F?

Let time take its course I say.

Honestly, she somehow still haunts my mind to date.

It's so darn scary.

With that I conclude this post, and pledge to get started on Math soon.

Soon.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 12:05 AM

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Friday, May 29, 2009

What a day. What a traumatizing GP test paper that was. Can't be helped, we hardly had any practice.

It'd be nice to pass though.

Nice to know that Vanessa can make it for the concert now. Haha thanks for keeping in mind that there was an extra ticket ready for you. And sorry for making you go through all that trouble just to tell me.

So far everything seems to be smooth sailing. It seems to be.

Studies remains the usual pile of shit. But not really bothered by it anyways. It's the last thing on my mind right now.

JC2 Farewell Party. Yeah, we've confirmed the location and the activities. But what should we give them as momentos? Don't know what to think of. Slowly brainstorm and decide.

Thank god there's Manna around to help. XD

Thing is, what if something crops up? The worst case scenario just keeps nagging in my mind.

What if Sherlyn thought I was joking about bringing a friend along for the GENUS concert and thus didn't buy that extra ticket? Then Vanessa won't get her ticket right?

But wait, I gave her the money, she'd better buy that ticket, or I'll strangle her.

That's seriously one worst case scenario that I hope won't happen.

Yeah, and the worst parts of whatever that has been happening recently.

I see everyone studying so hard now, even the people who started off as slackers are beginning to study like mad.

And I'm still slacking and scoring shitty results over here. This isn't good man.

Yet I still don't see the need, nor feel the urgency to work any harder.

Wait, should have a purpose for doing such a thing.

I think I know just what to keep in mind.

But what if you.

Don't know.

Back to senselessly smiling at each other. :)

Oo, movie tomorrow, can't wait. Should be fun.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:51 PM

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Thursday, May 28, 2009

Math lesson was hilarious today! XD

Though, on a more serious note.

In light of what has happened recently.

Why so critical? Why so hateful?

All this is tempting, and it seems fun, but really.

Do we really have to?

Is it really that bad?

I believe it is the case actually.

Either way, it's difficult to accept.

Utterly disgusted at how things turned out to be.

All those lies. That overbearing arrogance. And all those other negative things.

So I'm not going to care, at least for the time being.

Unless things turn for the better, though I highly doubt so.

Just stay away from me. CB.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:59 PM

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Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Just the certain people who don't remember.

It's quite hilarious, I have people who I don't even know wishing me a happy birthday.

But you know what, whatever.

If you're gonna fret, you're gonna die.

Time to fucking catch up man.

Spend your holidays well.

Study for CF test and Econs test. Clear the work latest by Friday.

Feeling really guilty for not working hard enough.

Then make up for it.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:14 PM

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Sunday, May 24, 2009

Something's up, seriously.

Haven't been updating because, been busy and really tired these days.

Yet here I am today.

19th May: Farhan and Roy's Birthday.

Really awesome to have the same birthday as your friend, so cool. :D

As usual, the gifts were bought and given. But unlike the others so far, there was even a celebration after that.

And it was pretty much that celebration that marked May 19th.

Natalie is one good baker I tell you. Looking at (and eating) the cakes she baked for Farhan and Roy, I was so amazed. She can really like, open up her own bakery if she really wants to.

Damn nice la~ :)

After which, Farhan and Roy were thrown into the pool, LOL.

Then we played badminton, quite fun :D

Then we sat down, and talked, seriously. Resolved a lot of things, found out about a lot of things.

One thing is clear now.

F.

Yet I wonder.

The rest of the days were pretty much just busy stuff, practicing, meetings etc.

Should get down to work soon. Not soon, NOW.

Anyway, birthday's coming, which reminds me. After all that had happened, wonder if you'll just do that little bit for me again, on your own accord.

I seriously wonder, something tells me I should think otherwise.

Just like that, we don't know each other anymore.

As a friend, I miss you, especially on that very day.

Argh. Please don't be a repeat of last year.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 3:30 PM

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Monday, May 18, 2009

Aren't you the better one.

Corny shit. Yet it's sweet. Yes, sweet corny shit.

How contradictory. XD

I can say the same, but think. Currently, whose words would mean more? Which would be upheld and cherished greater?

I think I know the answer to that. I think.

The least you could do was-

But you chose not to.

I guess that this is where we've come to. If you don't want to, then you don't have to. Believe me.

Fort Minor. Lame right! XD

Smile. I believe this is better off without me.

I have to distance myself, before I fall in any deeper.

I have to stop hoping, because I really can't see where this is going.

Never have succeeded, don't think I ever will.

Yet something just keeps bringing me back. Such a fool.

Don't know now. Just feel like shit.

But if you're happier that way, I seriously don't mind.

Anyway, ran like crazy today, clocked in a timing of 12.26 minutes for 2.4km. And I didn't train at all.

It's still a big fat D though. Now live with it.

Funny, the past comes back to haunt me. How everyone can get pissed and it's such a big fuss. While me being pissed is like nothing at all.

That's why I hardly get angry I guess. Pointless.

My, it's late, should sleep soon.

Soon.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:41 PM

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Sunday, May 17, 2009

Another two days not wisely spent. I'm not doing enough man.

Gotta catch up.

NAPHA this week, damn, better pass.

Not sure what to think anymore.

Never was certain.

But how wonderful it would be..

Yeah right, quit dreaming.

Should get to sleep.. Soon.

Ceaseless procrastination.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:17 PM

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Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Thinking the worst isn't going to do you any good. It may not be as bad as you think it is.

Either way, this has gone too far. There's Math and Econs test tomorrow and I haven't gotten started with any bit of studying.

I believe Math would require more attention for now.

Anyway, I'm sorry for being a Pang Seh Kia today. Sorry ma'am. Sorry.

Sorry.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:25 PM

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Monday, May 11, 2009

Going crazy, what for?

To think that you actually stand a chance, are you mad?

She has better.

I'm not the one.

Enough said. So why won't you give up?

Foolishly.

Mindlessly.

To feel so strongly. I thought I'd never be able to do it again.

I was wrong.

I can't give it up. No matter how bleak it seems to be.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 12:30 AM

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Sunday, May 10, 2009

Stop pushing me aside.

Don't know why, but I'm still keen.

Everything else is telling me to give it up, but I stubbornly persist.

Stupid?

Not too sure about that. But the HW shouldn't have to be neglected because of this.

I'll get back to you.

HW says: I'm waiting. I'll be here waiting. Waiting. Waiting.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:32 PM

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Saturday, May 09, 2009

It's already way into May.

With people like Joshua, Jolene and Alethia leaving us, our CTG is seriously going to shrink. Gonna miss you people. :'(

But still, all the best to you guys, have fun at NAFA!

Another 3 day break we're having. I'm not going to let it go to waste.

It's time to organize and pack. Then to clear the remaining Math HW and revise for Curve Functions. Oh, and Chemistry assignment.

Do-able. So do it.

INDUCED FITS HYPOTHESIS.

Kill them fussy smarts. Though that's not a good enough reason to hate. That's the extreme ego that practically everyone falls for. Don't like it, but can't hate it either.

What am I talking about.. I should get some sleep.

Before I go.

I've gathered enough reasons to give it up. And so I shall do so.

Unless you're keen, though I doubt so.

Almost time to sleep, I guess that's it.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:49 PM

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Thursday, May 07, 2009

Hate how I keep sleeping. Narcolepsy, is there a cure for it?

Got to catch up on work, don't care, not going to sleep tonight. Difficult to say though, might just fall asleep without warning. :/

Still, got to try, or die tomorrow.

At most just blame the teacher for forcing me to stay up late to do the work. She can't wait ah.

Ah enough talking, more working.

BOOM.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 9:54 PM

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Tuesday, May 05, 2009

SELL. And it gets worse.

These few days, and the moments that set you thinking.

One.

So many years. So long, so precious; at least to me it is.

A bit random to suddenly think of this. It just keeps coming back to me.

It's something I will never forget, something I'll bear with for the rest of my life.

I recall some of the harsh things you've said to me before. Previously, I took it so hard upon myself. But thinking back, it did teach me things.

" Not your business. "

All of a sudden, everything went cold and awkward. Sometimes I kept myself waiting for ages, for nothing. I waited like an idiot. Now that I think of it, what a fool I've been.

And then, I was just dropped without warning. Everything that happened disappeared into nothing. I bet you don't remember anything anymore.

I still do.

Yet, all the things that we have and will go through in life can make or break us.

It most certainly broke me.

But I'm not going to let it stay that way. I have things that you left me, but not FOR me. But at least I'll remember, look back and improve.

" It's not always about yourself. "

Two

Friendship. It matters a lot.

To have that knowledge that there will always be someone out there who would help and support you.

Someone you can confide in.

Someone who can confide in you.

Someone you can help and support.

Someone who bothers and is always ready to care.

A bit the demanding to be a friend eh?

It's difficult to consider certain people as friends. Sure, we do talk, but I don't know.

It's like you people don't care sometimes.

Insecure. But it's true that there's favoritism, admit it.

But I've realized. Be contented with what you have. No point lamenting over what you don't have, because it's not going to change anything.

I'll appreciate.

Three.

Family.

After Sunday 11.59pm, Monday 12.00am began. It was only then that we started chionging our homework.

I admit, it was foolish of us to not have done our work over the long 3 day break.

Instead, what the hell were we doing? Either sleeping, playing or eating, or etc. No work was done.

Luxury is a good thing. Over-indulgence isn't.

Left right till the eleventh hour.

Father just woke up and flared at that point of time. A destructive rampage.

As a parent, it'd be weird if you didn't feel angry at your children.

He called us stupid, useless, failures. Said he has given up on us. He seriously insulted us like shit that night. His very own sons.

It was all in a fit of anger, but it sure hurt all the same.

A wake up call. Time to work on this stagnant life.

Less of this indulgence, this wasting away.

Be more productive.

Don't let your emotions get the better of you, you can't afford to.

And thus I'm ending this post now.

Seriously.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:50 PM

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Sunday, May 03, 2009

OK, this isn't going to be an emo post. HAHA :D

Today was rather productive actually, did a lot of stuff besides work. Currently it's about 6pm, and there's homework to be done.

No worries, I still have time.

Econs WS 5
Math Tutorials CF 1.1, 1.2, 1.3 ( which I owe.)
Concept Map on Enzymes
Chem Tutorial

I just realized that even heavy metal can put me to sleep. Already desensitized.

No more means of keeping awake anymore. XD

OK, will get started on work pretty soon.

Oh, and happy birthday Hui Jie! :D

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 5:40 PM

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Friday, May 01, 2009

Whilst you can accomplish it with ease, I'm struggling over here.

Yeah, keep rubbing it in, will you?

I think it's rather obvious even though you say it isn't so. If it's really the case, I wish you'd just tell me, honestly, I don't mind; I'd prefer if you do.

Wishes, they haven't been realized for a long time now.

Assumptions. Yet another scenario. Suppose it's jealousy at play; because I'm nowhere near that standard.

Oh well.

Anyway, got Bronze for SYF. Too bad the new judges were so strict. Deal with it.

Yeah.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 7:18 PM

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Monday, April 27, 2009

There must be something wrong with my legs, or the way I run. The stamina should be about there, and shouldn't consume anything within 3 hours before running.

But yet, there's just something wrong.

Leg pain. But still, made average timing. Suppose Mr.Fauzi was rather impressed.

Besides that.

SYF is tomorrow. Darn, hope we at least get a Gold. After so much fun and practice, hope we can make it man.

Either way, we had fun and I'm sure we have and are going to put in the best of our efforts into SYF tomorrow.

Fun. PI.

Oh, and need loads of sleep. Don't know why.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 11:11 PM

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Saturday, April 25, 2009

Set, no more of this nonsense.

Tomorrow's plan.

PI. Math. Bio SPA. Guitar Practice. Cut Hair. Exercise.

And most importantly, to make sure this schedule is followed.

To stay alive, and live meaningfully.

Time to stop feeling like shit over every single thing.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 10:26 PM

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This silence. Can't stand it. It's too darn quiet in here.

Guess what? It can't be helped. I'm running out of initiatives. Losing the will. Diminishing motivation. I seriously don't feel like speaking anymore.

Follow the path of the Jasmine.

As I sit here and wallow in this eerie silence.

How would blasting songs help? It's the same old thing I listen to everyday.

What difference does it make?

In places, anywhere but here, people are throwing words at each other, be it good or bad. At least they have someone to talk to.

Over here, this noiseless environment just constantly reminds me of how alone I am.

You don't know how much I'm hating this silence right now.

Mood killer. This last resort mechanism.

Rain drops are falling on my head @ 6:37 PM

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